Utter misery

Well i had an ok weekend. It wasn't great but it wasn't bad. But now i am in utter misery. I have a massive toothache and it is killing me. I have even resorted to taking panadol and i never take pills. I know i am going to hit my daily water amount today as i am drinking it like a mad woman, holding it in my mouth to numb the nerves until it warms up. My stomach is screaming at me because it is starving and all i could force down was a dry piece of toast. It's my fault it's acting up. Shouldn't have had those sweet alcoholic drinks on the weekend. Now i am paying big time. Can someone come and put me to sleep? I'd like to wake up next year.

Yes Yes Yes Yes Yes

Well as the title says Y_E_S!

I am back baby. After a sluggish 2 weeks i really thought i was losing my grip but not so. I am feeling so good with myself after dropping 2.3kg.
Even though i am supposed to be consuming 2000 cals per day i usually stick to about 1500 and i struggle to get there. But this last week i hit 2000 at least 3 times. It must have given my body a wake up call.
WoooooooHooooooooo


Tham

New habits?

Well i seem to be back! I'm not feeling highly motivated, i'm not feeling low motivation. I just feel like doing the right exercise and eating the right amount of cals. I'm hoping for a good weightloss this week and i am working towards that end.
Maybe all this is becoming habit i don't know. Just to keep me in the right frame of mind, i am rewatching all the biggest loser series that i have recorded from the very first american one and i have been slack in updating my scrap books and have much to sort out.
My scrap books are where i buy slimming mag every month, sometimes even the weight watchers one, and i cut out the recipes, exercises and gym info, tidbits and any motivation story that takes my interest. Now i have an almost full exercise and recipe book. The tidbits and motivation will still be alright for a while.
Doing this keeps me focused on my goal and stops me from being bored and resorting to old habits. I guess that makes my emotional trigger boredom huh!
Good luck to my fellow losers, heres hoping we all have good weeks.

To those who have offered me support through my last lazy two weeks, thank -you very much , your support has been priceless and i am still here because of you. You know who you are

Nothing much

Just uploading my before piccies. It's scary but it needs to be done.
I need constant reminding of what i am here to do. The photo's makes me see the real me which i've been deluding myself about. Too late to go back now, it's Done.
It's really needed right now as i am slipping slowly but surely into old bad eating habits. But i can't do this anymore. I need to remember how nice it is to clasp my fingers and feel how much thinner they are. I know 10kgs isn't the only thing that has helped this that it is also the fact i have less fluid retention due to eating less salt.
what other things do i need to remember? I don't know, too many things. I do feel positive though even though my motivation is low, weird!
So hopefully if i have done everything right you will be able to see my before photos. Sorry for the late night ramblings. No need to comment.

Bye for now

The wagon

So i am feeling really good at the moment. I feel like i have managed to pull myself fully onto the wagon. My muscles are telling me they've had a nice work out. I haven't eaten badly and i'm not feeling like i could eat everything in sight.
I've just read the self sabotage article in this weeks CalKing university and it made sense to me. Hopefully there wont be another slip up for a while.
Bye.

Self sabotage

Well, the heading sums it up quite well, i had a bad BAD weekend. Too many social activites which i couldv'e handled better but didn't. Take away food and calorie heavy wine has registered on the scales like i new it would. 1.5kgs in a weekend. I think that such a heavy gain means that some of last weeks weight loss was fluid. I don't weigh in till Friday so i am hoping to lower that number down to 1kg.
My worst fear is that little by little i am slipping off the wagon. I don't want to fall back into old habits but i am having a few more treats now than i was when i started. I don't know if this bodes ill or if it was because i started so gung ho and so strict and we all know it can't continue like that for too long.
I also didn't have a lot of time for entering data into my food diary last week. So where as in the last few weeks i'd work out if i could afford my treat, last week i just ate mostly healthy, had the treats without doing the math, so i guess it could be a bit of both.
Jeez i really hate TTOTM, it really knocked me out of whack. I need a plan for next time.