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I'm a wife and a mother of 4. I began my 'journey' at 149+ kilos. 8 weeks ago i finally broke the magical barrier of 130 that had confounded me for so long and weighed in at 129.2. Stupid me though, i self sabotaged again and let family issues close me off to the world and i am now 134.6 again and rareing to do anything it takes to get back into new territory.

Friday, June 29, 2007

Do a little dance


So i weighed in today, and i am finally away from the 140's yayyyyyyyyyyy
Doing the dance of joy. Actually to register 10kg with CK i need to lose another 100g, but when i signed up i didn't realise you could put in the hundred grams (I was 149.4) so i rounded it, down because it was below the 5. So in my heart i know i've lost 10.3kg and that's important to me. I rarely made it to 10kg when i've tried before.

Just to remind myself, although i started seriously when i found CK 7 weeks ago, i was working towards this since Oct last year. I started swimming twice a week and the 10,000 steps program all by myself. Must have been a funny sight to my poor hubby to find me walking backwards and forwards in the lounge. I had read about needing 10,000 steps per day to be active enough and seeing as i clocked in at 145kg i knew i needed to at least make a start, even though i wasn't yet ready for a lifestyle change at that juncture.

When i found mention of the CK site on the net i had not been doing this for about four months, so this came along when i really needed it.

Hey that means i've lost nearly 16kg since Oct last year.

What IS important to me though is that i have been living a healthy lifestyle for 7 weeks now and i am feeling great! Even been drinking a cup of green tea every day and let me tell you -yuck!

Well, gotta fly, got to make a start on the next 10kg.

Tuesday, June 26, 2007

Worse than i thought

So i've looked at everyones blogs and seen some amazing before and after photos. I've always planned on doing that but i lost my card reader and as yet i am not able to upload any photos. So i hadn't taken them.

Well now i have and OMG, it's worse than i thought. I was wearing my gym clothes and i have a tiny little head on a huge body. I'm used to seeing myself in mirrors but after taking the photos from all sides i got a 3D perspective. The good thing is that i was having a weak few days with my motivation and looking at my pics got me back on track. As soon as i can i will upload the pics so i am constantly motivated everytime i log in, which is 2 - 3 times a day.

On the plus side i have realised my low motivation and wanting to cram every edible thing into my mouth was due to TTOTM. It's good to have a reason for feeling so out of control.

10 kilos down, many, MANY more to go.

Saturday, June 9, 2007

Bird brained idea

Okay, someone slap me upside the head next time i get another bird brained idea.
A 3km bushwalk HAH! Help me i'm dying! It was good that it only took my four kids and I 2hrs and 10 mins to do the 2hr walk. After all i am so unfit it is not funny. But to find out when i enter it into my diary that the cals burnt are equal to that of 30 mins in step class DOH!

My poor youngest was sooo happy at the start, but just before the halfway break she had had enough. Her little legs didn't want to walk anymore. And the fact that the last half a km was all stairs.........(It was one and a half a km there, 3km round trip, so 1 km of stairs all up). Starting back i thought i was an idiot who had bitten of more than she could chew. I also felt so sorry for my kids who had to slow right down with all my stopping and starting i did on the stairs. THIS HAS TO CHANGE.

I made it though, and i didn't die. I am so proud of myself and i think my kids are too.I have had an ankle injury for the past 2 weeks and my eldest 2 kids we arguing about who could give me a massage. Then hubby took over, ohhhhhh the pain.
I am logging off now as i have to pass out!

Friday, June 1, 2007

Today i cried......Happy tears

So 2 days ago i started a step DVD and thought to myself -self, do fifteen mins every 2 days at the low intensity range recommended, ie the floor.

So i did that on Wednesday, on top of my at least half hour walking.
Then i did it again on Thursday, so i was feeliong pretty good about myself. I even checked my pulse after the 15mins to make sure everything was right there. Yep all OK.
Today after checking in and finding i had lost another kilo i felt motivated enough to go again using the lowest part of my step. WOW o WOW!!!
I started crying happy tears when i realised i had gotten through 12 mins of it with 3 mins left. My muscles were aching, sweat was streaming down my face(something which didn't happen the previous 2 times)and i started breathing harder after only a couple of mins. My pulse check told me i was right at the top of my ok range, i cooled down, drank some water and even now feel so euphoric.

I just can't believe i cried without being sad, FOR MYSELF! What is this thing i am feeling.....pride? I can't get rid of my smile.