Quote of the week.

~What would you attempt if you knew you could not fail?

~ (I don't know)

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Who am i?

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I'm a wife and a mother of 4. I began my 'journey' at 149+ kilos. 8 weeks ago i finally broke the magical barrier of 130 that had confounded me for so long and weighed in at 129.2. Stupid me though, i self sabotaged again and let family issues close me off to the world and i am now 134.6 again and rareing to do anything it takes to get back into new territory.

Friday, August 31, 2007

The weight war!

Well i have lost another 400g this week. That makes 13.9 all up. But i made a little mistake when putting in my check in and by placing a 1 instead of a 5 - talking to my children at the same time, must be a bad multi-tasking day today, and now my stats say -------> I WISH it was real. But i hate it saying this when i haven't earnt it. I was once going to record my previous days weight as i woke up with TTOTM bloat. But i couldn't do it. You think....no one will know. But lying to yourself just doesn't work anymore, i am too old for that now.
Do you know i feel like i have already won my weight war. It is just how long it takes that needs to be decided on. The more i be good, the faster it will happen, the more bad times i have, the longer it takes. But it will be won, i have no doubt.

Have fun.

Friday, August 17, 2007

I did it, I did it ----- FINALLY

Yayyyyy, dance with me peoples.

After nearly four weeks of seesawing over the same 2 kilos i have finally broken through. 1.7 kilos. I am rapt. I don't know what else to say at the moment but i am very bloody happy. My motivation is higher then it has been in weeks and i am feeling more positive, well especially after jumping on the scales.

That makes 13.4 kilos all up now so i am getting close to the 15 mark.
I really felt that i was starting to let it all slip away and was just happy that i was seesawing and not just putting on without taking off. I need to remember for other low motivation times and plateaus that as long as i can hold my ground everything will be allright. And i guess that even if i put on a few kilos, to try and grab hold of the reigns before the horse bolts completely.

I hope everyone else is having a great day

Friday, August 10, 2007


Someone kick me in the butt! No i mean it. I am diddling around. I have sat on the edge of the wagon before but i can't get myself to jump on now. All i am doing is running beside it.
I know nobody can make everything better, but i am hoping that something that someone says will resonate with me and help me pull myself together. So people, please tell me what i am fighting for! I am drowning here. I am constantly feeling that i am failing at something, and when i focus properly i know that this is it! I am just finding it hard to focus. Life keeps interupting! Does anyone ever feel like this. I knos that i am not lost, just misplaced, but i need to find my path!