Quote of the week.

~What would you attempt if you knew you could not fail?

~ (I don't know)

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Who am i?

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I'm a wife and a mother of 4. I began my 'journey' at 149+ kilos. 8 weeks ago i finally broke the magical barrier of 130 that had confounded me for so long and weighed in at 129.2. Stupid me though, i self sabotaged again and let family issues close me off to the world and i am now 134.6 again and rareing to do anything it takes to get back into new territory.

Tuesday, July 27, 2010


~ONE day (one step) at a time.

~You (I) Can Do It!


Monday, July 26, 2010


~What would you attempt if you knew you could not fail?
~ Anon

Monday, July 12, 2010

Oww Oww Oww

I learned something today.....I will never recommend 1 month off of healthy eating at the same time you have 1 month off of exercise. You end up 10 kilos heavier and out of breath before you get off the warm up bike (i hope i don't have to say that i wasn't recoomending that before anyway )
Ow for the soreness in my muscles now and ouch for the weight gain. I didn't think it was that much. (My scales died months ago and i was weighing in once a week at the gym)
My clothes are tight but i am still in a 22 so i didn't think it was that bad, and the one thing that goes through my head........24 weeks left of the year and i'm calculating with 20 for leeway so if i lose roughly 500g a week i will be at the same point i was at my last challenge which gives me a wasted year.
Why can't i ever think about these things before i give up?

I should focus on the positives though. My food is ok, my exercise is done and i just need a couple of glasses more water. Worry about tomorrow (and the next 20-24 weeks) when i am living them.


Tuesday, July 6, 2010

Four Months????

I didn't realise it had been 4 months since my last blog. Bad girl.

What to say, what to say................................. Nothing good. I really have been a bad girl.
As of this moment i haven't stepped foot in the gym for a month. I should've known that not checking in everyday could lead to that happening. It started of as an excuse as i also started studying 4 weeks ago to try and get some qualifications which may one day lead to my first job (yayyy)
My excuse was that there was my course day, and then my shopping day, and then hump day - which for the past 3 months i have been taking off, and my hubby uses the car for work on Mondays.....................One thing after another and they are ALL excuses!, and BS ones at that.
Once the kids start back at school i will need to push myself to get back in the gym. I feel really disgusting in my own body because it has been neglected.

Food i hear you say?
Well thats worse than ever too. Some times - and i do stress SOME times, i manage to eat healthily and have a good day, but i seem to have developed an addiction to binging (a problem i didn't suffer too much with before). The word No has disappeared from my vocab. I was managing to keep my food at least 75-25 in favour of good eating when i went to the gym but now it's reversed. I feel like crap. I constantly feel bloated and dirty and..........................................................................................................

I need to get back on track. I plan on paying for at least the first years membership when CK finally goes paid. (how the site turns out will determine if i pay for subsequent years).
I need to get things moving again so that i don't waste my money dithering about

Now for the numbers. It seems - depending on the day that i have put on 7 - 10kg. As for clothing sizes....the last time i was doing the right thing was the end of my 6 week challenge and i managed to fit into a size 20 - just. I am again a size 22, and only just at that. My clothing is definitely on the tight size.

Anyway. I need all the buttkicks you can send my way, and the 2 places to start are my water consumption and planning.


Thursday, July 1, 2010


~Do you choose to simply know the path, or do you choose to walk it?
~ (I don't know)

Thursday, June 17, 2010


:(  I've given up. 

I've been trying to deny it but it's true. Now i just have to find my path again. At least i'm searching...........................................................................................................................................

(which is better than what i've been doing up until now)

Monday, June 7, 2010


~Obesity is a mental state, a disease brought on by boredom and disappointment.

~Cyril Connolly, The Unquiet Grave

Monday, May 17, 2010


You can't lose weight by talking about it. You have to keep your mouth shut.

~Author Unknown

Wednesday, March 31, 2010

Challenge - wk 5 and 6 - done and dusted.

Being slack again i know. That plus only just getting my phone and net back online after the feral child next door decided it would be fun to damage the phone cables at the end of our street.

Start weight 128.3kg
1st weigh in 127.8kg
2nd weigh in 126.1kg
3rd weigh in 125.8kg
4th weigh in 125.3kg
5th weigh in 126.2kg
6th weigh in 125.3kg

I had a GAIN of 900g in week five and a loss of 900g in week six which gives me a final total loss of 3kg.

Exercise....how did that go?
Exercise was still not an issue. The group bootcamp we did this time was the Cancer Councils Relay for life.
No problems here

Nutrition....how did that go?
I fell in a hole. I managed to dust myself off up until the weekend of week five but than i spent all weekend seesawing back and forwards between being a good little thamlore and being a naughty one

Motivation....how did that go?
As with the above i was all over the shop. Torn between ' you're in the final days, pull your finger out' and 'i give up, i can't be stuffed' I admit it, i crumbled.....damn it.

Overall, i'm lucky i managed to lose the 900g i put on.

the numbers i am proud of - drumroll please.....................
Weight as stated above, -3.0kgs
Arms -2.5cms
Bust -5.5cms
Waist -11 cms
Hips -6 cms
Grand total of 25.5cms
And i did drop a dress size. I'm very happy with that

All that is left now is to wait for my bio age test results


Thursday, March 18, 2010

Challenge - wk 3 and 4

(Sorry, combining two weeks....i was being slack)

Start weight 128.3kg
1st weigh in 127.8kg
2nd weigh in 126.1kg
3rd weigh in 125.8kg
4th weigh in 125.3kg

I had a loss of 300g in week three and a loss of 500g in week four which gives me a total loss of 3kg in 4 weeks. Nothing to be sneezed at.

Exercise....how did that go?
Exercise was not an issue. I've been consistantly exercising 4-5 days a week and we did a boxing bootcamp during week 3. Boy o boy, i loved it. Once i'm smaller and therefore (the required) light on my feet, i think it may be something i look into.
No problems here

Nutrition....how did that go?
Not the best. All was fine in week 3 until my daughter won her Grand Final and i decided to join in the celebrations. In short, i had a few beers. The next step - of course, 3 slices of pizza. I knew i shouldn't have had them but i listened to that devil voice on my shoulder. The one that said....Go on, you burned 700+ cals with 2 hours of boxing bootcamp. You've been good with your cal budget all day and your weightloss is going great... Stupid voice. Stupid me for listening. I'm lucky to have lost 300g 2 days later.
This past week has been harder. I have had to fight everything. There have been victories and ther have been defeats but what is really getting me down is the mental struggle i have had to deal with this week. My mood has been all over the place - not helped at all by TTOTM. I can be a misery guts in the morning when i wake up all swollen and bloated and then flying high in the arvo when the water has kicked in and i've piddled away all the excess fluid and i feel thin (usually determined by how my face and hands feel)
I'm hoping for a better week 5. The first 2 days have only been so-so.

Motivation....how did that go?
Great up until beer and pizza on That Sunday. My mojo was really low until Tuesday morning and it was time for the dreaded weigh in. After registering a loss (miracle) my mojo was in top form again, but that only lasted the rest of the day. The rest of week 4 was hit and miss. I know mojo is not always flying the flag so as long as i can keep pushing on anyway, i guess thats a good thing.

I don't really have a wrap up of the 2 past weeks. I'm lucky i have even blogged it. As you can see from the shared blog i didn't even manage that last week.
Wish me wind to blow the clouds away and let the sun shine through (OMG so corny )



Tuesday, March 2, 2010

Challenge weigh in - wk 2.

Start weight 128.3kg
1st weigh in 127.8kg
2nd weigh in 126.1kg

So, thats a loss of 1.7kg this week, and 2.2kg overall. We wont be doing any of the measurements until the end.

Exercise....how did that go?  
Well, i did great. I went to the gym everyday and had some killer workouts. Plus it was a big day out with the family for me on Saturday and i was on my feet from 8am to 4pm, the morning being spent at little aths. On Sunday we had my daughters semi finals for cricket (they've made the gannies:rock1: ) and i put in 30 mins of brisk walking with 3x15 sets of tricep dips and 3x15 sets of pushups, whilst still keeping my eye on the game. I think i'll do the same thing for next weeks game.
All in all, i was pleased with my physical efforts this week.:thumbu2:

Nutrition....how did that go?  
Hmmm, how do i answer that. I want to say not good. After all, my daughter brought home a burger from her work on Saturday night and without any second thoughts i ate it....well any third thoughts anyway. Other than that my food budget was fantastic, so i shouldn't focus on one negative.
My food was fine. (Perfect if i was maintaining).

Motivation....how did that go?  
I believe that was good also. I mean, a part from the burger episode i had no problems keeping to a healthy eating plan and no problems with putting in some physical effort.

Now, as for the loss. I am very pleased. I wont log the loss in until Friday, my normal CK weigh in day, and hopefully i can lose an extra 200g so i can bypass the 126's alltogether. (I hope i didn't jinx myself :( )
The 25's represent a mini goal for me. It was the last real weight i was concious of, even though it was at the 20 week hospital weigh in for my son. That was almost 12 years ago. This is going to be a big achievement. The thing about reaching my goals though, although i feel pleased i am not ecstatic, i don't know what it is really, though i wonder if it is a part of that feeling that i have that i will one day be successful in my weightloss (to clarify, i mean the same feeling that i have when i thought about -successfully, the sexes of my pregnancies). I've always known i will one day win this weight battle, but knowing that can be a little offputting as i seemed to keep putting the start day off. Maybe though, i am not taking pride in something i shouldn't be proud about. I mean , i should never have put this weight on in the first place.
Or maybe i am just waiting (weighting? ) for the magical double numbers. Who knows...... ultimately as long as i keep plodding on, the only thing that matters is that i am living a much healthier life now, and so are my family.

Wishing everybody some 'happy dolphins'


~If hunger is not the problem, then eating is not the solution.

~Author Unknown

Friday, February 26, 2010

Febuary challenge


To eat 5 veg and 2 fruit per day.

Week beginning 1st:  6/0-5/0-0/0-0/0-0/0-0/0-0/0
Week beginning 8th:
Week beginning 15th:
Week beginning 22nd
:  0/0-0/0-0/0-0/0-0/0-0/0-0/0

Note:-Hmmm, my challenge doesn't look to good this month. It's not that i've rarely eaten my fruit and veg - well, i am a little slack with my fruit, but i am always above on the veg side - especially with salad vegies but i just struggle to log them in.

I'll move on to a  new challenge for next month and try the fruit and beg one another few months down the track.

Week Thirteen: -5th Feb 10-+1 kg

Week Fourteen: -12th Feb 10-0

Week Fifteen: -19th Feb 10-2.4 kg

Week Sixteen: -26th Feb 10-0.3kg

(134.6) Nov  '09 :- 1.8kg

(132.8) Dec '09:-3.0kg

(129.8) Jan '10:-1.1kg

(128.7) Feb '10:-1.7kg

Tuesday, February 23, 2010

Challenge weigh in - wk 1

Start weight 128.3kg
1st weigh in 127.8kg

As you can see i recorded a loss of 500g. I'm not really dancing for joy though as last Friday had me another 500gs down, equalling a kilo.

So, why the gain on my loss (if that makes sense to anyone other than me?)
My weekend was on track as far as calories where concerned, but due to being at a little aths comp all weekend and living on lean chicken and light mayo sandwiches with carrot sticks and boiled egg for snacks i figure i overloaded on carbs. What's done is done. It could've been a lot worse if i didn't take any of my own food and i didn't go the salad route as i wanted to make sure i wouldn't stray with takeaway carp because a salad didn't quite fill me.
I'm pretty sure i overloaded on water as well. 5x 600ml bottles on the Saturday and 3 on the Sunday.
Anyway....my instructor asked me not to do my usual Friday weigh in as i would have been happy with my loss if i hadn't seen a better loss a couple of days earlier. And as for my food diary this first week of the challenge, she was very happy with it.

Moving on.

My contours branch is being sold so they have a guy (GUY!!!!!) out, kind of like, going over everything. He decided to take over today just as i got on my first rebounder.
Boy did i have a fantastic workout. My HR was up 10-20 bpm for the entire time. I normally sit between 130-145 ish with an occasional 150+ when i do a couple of running laps but after the first 5 machines and rebounders i never saw below 145 again. I felt great afterwards and he even gave me a thumbs up for 'putting in a great effort'. It was fun to do a few different things on the rebounders and he didn't just give you a move to do for each one, he started you off and then made sure to up the intensity ofter 10 or so seconds and then again....and then up it again. I guess kind of following a similar path to interval training. (if i make sense - which is rarely, if ever )

Although a part of me thought he really shouldn't have been there - considering a lot of women choose contours for its being a women only gym ( and many members complained with a few turning around and walking straight back out), i actually found i didn't care. That i have gotten over my embarassment of all my bits jiggling and i actually enjoyed the challenge he presented me with as i had to push myself harder to keep up with him. I wish he could stay.....or at the very least that the instructors learn a few things from him  (Shock, betrayal)

All in all a good couple of days with no alcohol or coke involved:thumbu2: (The drink coke, not the powdered kind :laugh5: ) I even stayed away from the evil doritos, twisties, party pies, choc eclaires etc... when i joined my childern after school assembly on Monday to celebrate my son getting School Captain and my daughter getting House Vice Captain.  I stuck to 2 small pieces of watermelon :)

I'm having a contented *sigh* moment. Better live it up while i can.

Till next time

Friday, February 19, 2010

Finally, something to blog about

I've been such a good girl this week and i have finally had some positive movement.
My Bio age weight was 129.1 and todays weigh in means i have dropped 1.8 kg.

I had to actually weigh myself a few times as the first weigh in had me at 126.9. I didn't believe it so i stepped on it again to get 127.0, then again for 127.3 then 127.4 and finally another 127.3 which i was happy to take.
Yesterdays food wasn't good though. Only 700 cals. I only ate small amounts for brekkie, lunch and dinner as my lovely 2 eldest daughters decided to tell me at the last minute that they had a hawaiian themed school swimming day and i had to put together 2 hula skirts at short notice. I was too busy sewing to eat and that meant i woke up this morning ravenous.
I'm pleased to actually feel bad about not eating enough calories. A long time ago i would have thought i'd done good by eating a low amount of cals during the day. Thank you CK uni and forums 
I still have a few more days before i have to weigh in for my 6 week challenge, but i am also keeping my normal Friday weigh ins that i have set for CK. A part of me hopes for another 400g to get me into the 126 range but i am happy with how i have done.
My youngest has a big competition going both days of the weekend and we are taking healthy sandwiches and snacks, so fingers crossed i don't give into any inner demons.

OH.....by the way.
My 3 goals for this challenge are.......................

1 Lose 5 kg and 20cms
2 Lose a dress size (fit into a 20 )
3 Don't drink any alcohol or coke for the duration of the challenge.
And it's my first TGIF with number 3 in a while. I'm looking at it as an experiment, to see if it changes My weight loss results.

I hope everyone has a good weekend.

Wednesday, February 10, 2010

First Bio Age test

My new 6 week challenge starts on Monday so i had to have my Bio Age test done today.





Lung capacity:-400

Fitness:-46 bpm

Push ups:-7

Core stabilty:-35 secs

The weigh in isn't too bad considering i usually weigh in first thing in the morning and the test was done late afternoon. I was pleased with my flexabilty and also with my fitness test. My beats per minute were taken after using a step for three minutes. I had to step to the beat and i was given the beat of a fit person (yayyy) which was set to 120, the others being 100 and 80. I'd have loved to be able to do more pushups but i already knew that i need more upper body strength and my core was quite good as well. My waist however is up 1cm from the last time the gym took measurements (the gym measurements being different from mine anyway which is normal) and can be explained by any number of reasons, not least of which i am due for TTOTM.

All in all i am ok with how i did....though that may change when i receive the results. I'm just not sure how i can better them though. That is, apart from the weight and waist.

I better start getting my meals planned.

Bring on the next 6 weeks.



Wednesday, February 3, 2010

January Challenge


To eat 5 veg and 2 fruit per day.

Week beginning 4th:  3/2-5/2-3/1-4/2-10/1-0/1-0/2

Week beginning 11th:

Week beginning 18th:

Week beginning 25th
:  0/0-0/0-0/0-0/0-0/0-0/0-0/0

Note: i was successful the third week but my away from computer time meant i didn't log the details. My last week however was a bit hit and miss due to having a slack week.

Loss for the month.....1.1kg :-

Week Nine: -8th Jan 10-0.1

Week Ten: -15th Jan 10-0.7

Week Eleven: -22nd Jan 10-Nil

Week Twelve: -29th Jan 10-0.3

(134.6) Nov  '09 :- 1.8kg

(132.8) Dec '09:-3.0kg

(129.8) Jan '10:-1.1kg

Long time between posts

Gee where does a month go?  Entertaining kids, cleaning the house 5 times a day, BBQs, back to school shopping etc...

So now it's the start of a new month. Losses weren't great for January but i am still weighing in under 130 (relieved). I'll be doing the next Contours challenge which begins on the 15th of this month and i'm trying to get back into a routine. 

As for my personal challenge... the fruit and veg challenge....i was successful until the last week of the month  when i became lax whilst cramming in some last minute family time. I'll be doing the same personal challenge this month as i feel that getting into the habit of eating enough fruit and veg is essential.

Have a good one



Sunday, January 3, 2010

First blog of 2010

I managed to be successful with my December challenge - just, but it would've been nicer if my yellow crosses were a part of the 5 red ones and not on top of them.

I gained a kilo over the christmas week (weighed in NYE) so i hope to have that down again for the next weigh in (the first for 2010). I stayed under the 130, again just, but i did it and that was what i was hoping for.

I really want to do well this year. I'm feeling like it's going to be a great one. 2009 wasn't the best so it's time to put that year away and forget about it :)

Now to come up with a new challenge for the month. A little slow i know, but i've been hanging with the kids and i've been on the computer less.....can't you see the shakes in my typing? i have withdrawls :( *chuckles*

I think i'll continue on with the red and green crosses on my home calender, i like marking the day off with green.
*insert thinking music here*
Nope....i'll just have to update when i come up with a new challenge.
Ahhh, my CK girls, they may be my salvation. On to group therapy :)


December challenge


To Get no more than 5 red crosses

Week beginning 1st: xxxxxxx

Week beginning 7th:  xxxxxxx

Week beginning 14th: xxxxxxx

Week beginning 21st: xxxx xxx

Week beginning 28th:  xxxxxxx

NB: Red crosses are for days that i have been bad with my calories and exercising. Yellow are for free days ( christmas, boxing day and New years Eve).

Loss for the month.....3.0kg :-

Week Four: -4th Dec 09-1.0

Week Five: -11th Dec 09-1.6

Week Six: -18th Dec 09-0.8

Week Seven: -24th Dec 09-0.6

Week Eight: -31st Dec 09-+1.0