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I'm a wife and a mother of 4. I began my 'journey' at 149+ kilos. 8 weeks ago i finally broke the magical barrier of 130 that had confounded me for so long and weighed in at 129.2. Stupid me though, i self sabotaged again and let family issues close me off to the world and i am now 134.6 again and rareing to do anything it takes to get back into new territory.

Wednesday, September 30, 2009

Bad weekend

Why is it sometimes so bloody easy to stay on track, and at other times so easy to let it all go?

I had a bad weekend It's going to do some damage and i have weigh in day on Tuesday. I have no idea why i did it. I know it is self sabotage but i can't put my finger on why i do these things.
Enough of the self pity.
Today i went to 'bootcamp'

By the time i finished my feet felt like they had swollen to 10x their normal size and my arches were swollen. It may have had something to do with the 3km run/jog/powerwalk interspersed with tricep dips, pushups and step ups on benches that we did for warm up. Of course, i didn't jog the whole way but i did keep pushing myself.
After getting home i had just enough energy to down a protein shake and crawl into bed where i fell asleep for nearly 3 hours. That may have had something to do with not being able to sleep last night. I saw 2am on the clock at least.

If i think about it though, i didn't have a bad weekend, just a bad Friday night/Saturday as i picked myself up and moved on today. My health budget (prot/fat/carb ratios) looks healthy today as does my cal count.
So now i am fearing just one thing..........my normal gym session tomorrow I don't wanna do it Arggggg.


Tuesday, September 29, 2009

I made my mini goal!

I am now officially a 20's girl. 129.2!!!!!!!
It was the last week of my 6 week check in and my weekend wasn't the very best, so much so that i thought it would be another time of sabotaging myself so i wouldn't get out of the 30's. But i did do a bootcamp this weekend ( 3kmtrack with 5 tags that needed to be collected and each one at the bottom of a set of stairs). I struggled with this bootcamp. I had blisters from hell on my feet so i only did a short of shuffling or a power walk. I decended the stairs as fast as possible because i knew i would be slower coming back up them. I still finished the whole thing, which is more than i can say for some participents, let alone those who didn't even turn up. The weather was abysmal. I felt like i was lost in the wilderness I didn't feel as tired as i liked seeing as i couldn't push myself to do more than shuffle, but at least i did it.
Yesterday, because i couldn't bear to put my runners on, i did a countours session at home. Using my hand weights when i would be using a machine and my daughter to keep time and tell me when to 'change stations'.
I get up this morning thinking that the singapore noodles for dinner on Sat( it did fit into cals) and the finger food at a family thing on Sun (did not fit in )was going to kill me with the excess fluid i was feeling.
But it didn't!
I lost 1.2kg and another 8 cms, giving my a total of 5.9kg and (36.5)cms in 6 weeks.
My mini goal to get out of the 30's and into the 20s was reached, as was my 2 other goals, to fit into a smaller sized 22 pants (tighter than normal 22 and i couldn't do them up before i started) and to finish the challenge this time. I'm elated, of course but my new goal is to keep going and get further along in my weightloss goals. Which reminds me......time to make a new one

Til next time.

EDIT: I just realised i've hit the 20kg lost mark. MY official CK start weight being 149.3 (didn't know we had to add the point something) But considering when i first decided to do something about myself because 150kg scales didn't register.....who knows what the true total is.
I think i'm gonna cry Silly tears of pride.

Tuesday, September 22, 2009

Sooooo close

Week 5 weigh in of my 6 week challenge

After a small gain last week due to TTOTM, this weeks results are in.
2.0kg and 10cms loss
That is a grand total of 4.8kg and 28.5 all up.

Boy do i feel great about that. That gives me 1 more week to make my challenge mini goal, and CK mini goal of being in the 120's which is to lose 500g. It sounds so easy, but the easy times are when i seem to falter. Well. I'm sticking to what has been working so far, positive thinking....the belief that i can do what i set out to do, that i can change my life.l
If i put in the time and the effort, that it can be done. (Fingers crossed)


Wednesday, September 16, 2009

week 4 check in.

My first gain.
700g and 3cms. I should be upset but considering it was TTOM and i can gain up to 3kg i'm still fine. The funny thing is that the cms gained were in my boobs (i would guess that), my arms and thighs, which i wouldn't have counted on. I would've thought my waist and hips instead.
I pushed on though and had a great workout after measuring, went home and completed a good food diary and went to sleep feeling positive.
It was even better today when i felt less bloated and my gym session was out of this world thanks to a well time positve comment about how good i am looking at the moment. I flicked off those old negative - 'as opposed to looking like crap normally?' thoughts, and am really trying extra hard to stay positive. I'm still not a personal mantra person, but any slip ups i have had the past few weeks haven't lasted long due to mentally picking myself up and dusting off.

2 weeks to go now till the end of challenge. Time to power up the home straight

Tuesday, September 8, 2009

week 3 check in.

Well so far so good. I'm down another 1.3 kilos ,add to that another 4.5 cms lost bringing me to a grand total of 3.5kgs and 21.5cms in 3 weeks.
I need to refocus on my food again though. A little too much bread and too little water in the latter days of last week. I'm half way there and i WILL NOT be faltering now. (grrr face)

As for my weight. Well as you can see i've just minused 5.3 and that is not the same as 1.3 or even 3.5. The gyms scales have always been a little different, but my scales have been reading 137 for almost 2 months now, and considering the gym scales have shown a loss, and so does the tape measure and my clothes i thought, Stuff It....have given them up for dead and will have to continue with the gym scales for all my check ins.

Soooo, for the next 3 weeks my plan is to keep doing what i have been doing (with less bread of course) and not dwell on any negatives, continue focusing on the positives and incorperating at least 2 snacks into my day to add to my 3 meals. This seems to be keeping my eating habits under control. (Who knew )

I've found some recipes for protein bars, i'm going to have to make some to keep my protein intake up as i am feeling a little tired lately, but i just keep slogging through.

Hope your week has been great.