Why is it sometimes so bloody easy to stay on track, and at other times so easy to let it all go?
I had a bad weekend It's going to do some damage and i have weigh in day on Tuesday. I have no idea why i did it. I know it is self sabotage but i can't put my finger on why i do these things.
Enough of the self pity.
Today i went to 'bootcamp'
By the time i finished my feet felt like they had swollen to 10x their normal size and my arches were swollen. It may have had something to do with the 3km run/jog/powerwalk interspersed with tricep dips, pushups and step ups on benches that we did for warm up. Of course, i didn't jog the whole way but i did keep pushing myself.
After getting home i had just enough energy to down a protein shake and crawl into bed where i fell asleep for nearly 3 hours. That may have had something to do with not being able to sleep last night. I saw 2am on the clock at least.
If i think about it though, i didn't have a bad weekend, just a bad Friday night/Saturday as i picked myself up and moved on today. My health budget (prot/fat/carb ratios) looks healthy today as does my cal count.
So now i am fearing just one thing..........my normal gym session tomorrow I don't wanna do it Arggggg.
Who am i?
- I'm a wife and a mother of 4. I began my 'journey' at 149+ kilos. 8 weeks ago i finally broke the magical barrier of 130 that had confounded me for so long and weighed in at 129.2. Stupid me though, i self sabotaged again and let family issues close me off to the world and i am now 134.6 again and rareing to do anything it takes to get back into new territory.
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