First free day

I woke up this morning, had a scraping of jam on a slice of toast as i had run out of oats and then took myself off to a super session.
I felt very lethargic re; the gym today. It may have something to do with staying up late with the hubby, but although i didn't put in quite as much 'oomph', i got the job done still.
It was the second hand book stall at the school today and for the first time since my eldest started i remembered to go and get her some books. A lot cheaper now that i have 2 at high school. Then i went out for a skinny, spicey chai latte.
By this time i was in the minus 3 hundred and something cals, so it was a good start to have my 'free day'.

It wasn't bad as far as free days go. I stopped counting the cals after the spicey chai, but i hope to 'abuse' my freedom less next Saturday.
Now to keep my willpower in control until then. It's something i haven't really been too forceful with in a while.

There's been a group therapy session in our main thread today, so all in all, i am feeling pretty good with myself.


Edit i don't feel as guilty today because of the mindset of a 'free day'

Have a good one.
Thamlore
Xoxo

re-learning the old things

So! I'm feeling a little out of control at the moment.
My gym sessions have fallen to 3-4 times a week (instead of 6).....i went today though. Too much crap associated with this time of year, the normal raising a family issues, plus a few mishaps involving my sons fractured arm and metal imbeded in my hubbys eye......well everyone has these times.
My food has been up and down. a couple of days good, then a bad one and lets start all over again.
Then there is reading a few things about regarding losing weight that just get you down sometimes. (no, i'm not talking about any car crashes on CK)

So i've been feeling pretty crappy. Will i ever get there??? you know how it goes.

Today i finished up at the gym when no-one else was about. So i started chatting to the trainer about where i am at, mentally.
She spoke to me about not concentrating on info others are given. All it does is put you in a negative frame of mind.
She told me that doing my workouts 3-4 times a weeks was fine for seeing results, especially as she sees how hard i work. (93 visits.....7 more and i get my name on the wall)
Now here comes the part i already knew, but was not good at practicing.....
Up my 3 meals a day to 5 smaller meals a day. I mean, we all know this but i really struggle to fulfill it.
Now i am not going into the specifics as we all know them, but today it just made sense.
She also brought up the 'naughty day' It was Saturdays for me and she told me to start them up again. This made sense as well.
in the beginning...... well i used to be good all week to have a few 'naughty' things on Saturday. Sometimes i struggled to get back on track for Sunday though and i even found some times when i skidded into Monday. Which is why i stopped doing it.
But now....with no day to look foward to i find that i have less reason to be good - if you know what i mean. So i keep slipping. There is no thought of....not today, wait until Saturday.
I'm going to try this until christmas and see how it goes.

For now my weight keeps bouncing around. Up a kilo or 2, down a kilo or 2. Hence not changing anything for a while
(please help me be good, please help me be good )
Fingers crossed
xoxo
Thamlore

Monday, 20th Oct 2008

Hi fellow bloggers

I know, it's been a while. I am half way into my 6 week challenge and i am doing well, but also struggling.

I've gained about 1.5 kilos since i started and lost 7 cms all over.
So here starts the convo with myself........
"hey, it's gotta be coz your building muscle."
'yeah, but you should be losing, not gaining"
"Plus, you are working those muscles and they need fluid to repair...hence weight gain-water weight gain"
Are you listening.....i should have lost a couple of kilos by now, i'm about 4 kilos behind!"
"You do realise you look like you've lost weight now....i mean, i can even tell"
"lost cm's, not weight!"

And now i have damaged myself. I let those pesky demons stop the wagon for me whilst i hopped off. Bad weekend, and i have another measurement session tomorrow. It's not looking good.
I'm hardly spending any time on CK. RL has kind of gotten busy for a bit. I know that always has me slipping a bit. I think some of my problem is that i CAN start to see a difference, and i get a little "ohhh, one won't hurt -you've done sooooo well"


mojo, come home.......i miss you

Another low point :D

131.4
the lowest i've been in years.

I done 35 sessions at my local contours.....only missing 2 (first sat as i was going to take the weekends off and last sat as i was steam cleaning the carpets).

My fav trainer is giving me a big head. I lost the most cm's last month out of the gym and after a meeting with all the surrounding contours she was gloating as i had lost the most out of the surrounding ones as well.......my success is her success afterall

So i lost 1.4 this week. I'm fine, i'm happy, but i am waiting for the other shoe to drop and the plateau to start....Again. The little yo-yo movement my scales sooooooo love.

The only difference i can see in my shape is that my waist is narrower, but that just makes me feel wider in the hips and butt.
Actually, i do see more bulges, but i attribute that to changing shape. It does throw you for a bit though, it makes me think i have put on weight.

I'm worried i haven't lost any cm's but i have 2 weeks to turn that around. I am trying to prepare myself mentally, like when you first start your 'journey' and you lose the kilos fast!

On other fronts, My house is sparkly. I had a spring clean and cleaned out all the hidey holes (and tupperware cupboard)

I'm tired and aching, yawn my way through gym and fall into bed and pass out. It's just been one of those hectic weeks.

And now for school hols....... Does anyone want to 'borrow' 4 kids????

The weekends thoughts.

Well i did the supersession on Saturday.....guess which part this idiot glossed all over.
If you guessed super, then you can skip 10 of your sit-ups

I was very sore. I did things i hadn't done before. It was also a good thing that i had completed half the C25K program. We had to keep jogging around the room for 10 mins as a phone call needed to be answered.
I came home and felt like i could sleep for a week. The good thing though is that it only lasted for a few hours.....by the next day there was no residual effects. gone are the days when the most pain kicks in 2 days later.


Sunday.....Happy fathers day to my darling hubby. He even went and mowed my fathers lawn for him(dad is a nightworker so really doesn't get a chance)
I cooked a 3 course meal for him.....i really feel loving towards him today. He even made me brekkie which was ready for as soon as i stepped out of the shower. Nothing for himself. He had the normal fathers day brekkie in bed.



My one main feeling for the day. I feel comforatable in my own skin.
Something that hasn't rung true for me ion years now. I don't know what has done it. Maybe feeling in control of myself.....i am not sure. Last year when i first joined i was losing the kilos easily and i don't even remember feeling it then. Whatever the case..........I Like It

Louise
xoxo


EDIT This is after posting to another member. After measuremts on Friday i was nearly in tears..........WHY? I think it was because i was proud of myself. How weird is it that pride in ourselves produces tears.

1st months progress report.

Not on CK, but at contours.

weight.-2.8kg
Arms-1.5cm
bust--3cm
waist--3cm
hips--2cm
thighs--3cm
So i am feeling mighty fine today Almost saw my happy dolphins, they just swam by in the distance.
I do feel great though. The trainer was laughing as she was taking my measurements as i had happened to say i don't think i had lost any cms. I couldn't see a difference.
I guess this means that when my undies were falling down during workouts, it wasn't because i was always coming across the same pair that had loosened elastic
Because that was what i kept telling myself.
Soooo, i don't see too much of a difference. Just dents. For a while i have noticed a dent on one side of my stomach and felt a dent on the other sides buttcheek. But the last few days have brought to my attention a dent under my belly button which seems to cause a hump above my belly button. Obviously, now that i have hindsight, it's my stomach shape changing and i'll have to get used to it's new shape - for a while


No TGIF for me....no drinkies. I'm hitting the supersession tomorrow so i wont do that on a hangover - and ever since i have been eating a lot healthier i seem to get hangovers ranging from small to headsplitting on even 2 drinks


Thamlore
Xoxo

I've lost my happy dolphins :(

Well, i'm still doing contours. I've been everyday they are open since i joined, except the first Sat as i A Didin't think i'd want to and B Thought i'd need the rest.
I had happy dolphins for the first full week, which made it a hell of a lot easier to be good. 2 weeks later and i haven't seen them since. Still going but sometimes i feel blah and am counting down the machines until i am finshed or i really work my arse off and feel some major power and determination flowing through me, but still no happy dolphins.

I have even booked into their super session this week, admittedly after asking if i could madify some moves due to my size as i heard women talking about how hard and scary it is. I was told i would be able to handle it easy from what the have seen when watching me - now that made me feel good for a while.

Are happy dolphins realated to other things? Like if maybe you haven't eaten enough that day - so far, no dolphins.
Or
Feeling some ache in my knee, no dolphins.

I WANT THEM BACK!!!!!

On another note, i wont be doing the 6 week challenge as they are not running it due to being school hols soon. Sorry if i have mentioned this before. I can't remember if i mentioned it in thread or in blog.


Thamlore
Xoxo